Stupid?

I know, it's been a long long time...i did not update my blog. Well, that is because...hmm u know, hmm busy. oh that's the best excuse u have ever! *shame on you!*

Erm, didn't know where to start. I shall start from today then. 2-hour discourse class make me realise something. The realistic of this society. I did a very stupid thing in order to exchange my clear conscience. Early in the morning i received a text message from Shashee, one of my course mate. She told me she is not feeling well and she asked me help her to sign the attendance. As usual, we work as" team member", I couldn't find a single reason to reject.

Suddenly, my lecturer looked at the attendance list and starts counting. F**K I was very nervous that time. Afterwards, she called out "where is Shashee?" She isn't in the class, who signed for her? Once. Who signed for her? twice. * heart beats faster* Who signed for her? third. (okok i surrender, i raised up my hand slowly and say..."i signed for her")

"COME AND SEE ME AFTER CLASS"

"YES MS MANJIT"

I know what i m gonna face next. I know pretty well especially this kind of fuzzy lecturer. And you guys can imagine what are the consequences that i had >< But it wasn't that bad, at least i only got warning from her. hehe. (typical bad university student).

Many people claims this is stupid but i do not regret, at least, i have the courage to confessed my mistake instead of being coward.

Hey! Read this if you are a lady~

只因为你已经是23岁的女孩子，所以你必须坚强，

你要为自己的未来而努力，

因为把未来寄托给别人是很痛苦的；

你还要经得起无数的考验和挑战，

因为你要靠自己面对，家人只能支持你；

你也不准因为任何人而失去你自己，

因为你是你，最独一无二的你。

你要学会控制你的情绪，

因为你已不是三岁小女孩，没人再能体谅你，宠坏你了；

你要会照顾你自己的健康，

因为，身体是你的，你病了辛苦的只有你自己；

你要经得起寂寞，

因为，只有经得起寂寞的女人才不会盲目的乱交男朋友。

米音，停止吧，别再wechat或者line了，他们都消失了，他们只是过客，拍拍屁股就会走掉。明知道没有结局的东西就不要去碰它了。过属于你自己的生活吧，我相信你可以靠你自己过得更精彩，相信你自己，走出来吧。

Past is just past, it is just a garbage. Although I will thinking of you but i know it just the past. I will appreciate what i have now and it is really a precious gift from God. 

My own Valentine =)

It is just a normal day if we treat it normal. Yeah this is how single me this year comfort myself. ahaha, happy valentine's day everyone, is time to update my blog. What do you expect, a single person will spend his / her valentine's day? Normal day lah, nothing special, 24 hours have to go lor~

If i said I am very fine, then I lied to myself. But at least, I can fool the world! Because everyone thought I am fine. In this special day, lots of memory flash back. What we did last year, where we went, still fresh in my mind, as it just happened yesterday. My brother mentioned about him just now, hmm, he said "why he so stupid give up my sister?" haha. Brother, if a person wants to leave you, he will find thousand of reasons to leave you, likewise, if he loves you, no matter how bad you are, he will find thousands of reason to stay with you.

These few days after I come back to my hometown, i can't stop thinking back the memories that we both shared when we were together. People scold me: "stupid, not worth it darling, you deserve better, you will get a new one, soon you will forget him", yea i know i know....but somehow i just have to honest to myself, I miss him. Do you think he will miss me? (Shit* i really wanna kill myself, cannot tahan ady) Perhaps because that is my first love? So it vividly stay in my mind? Should be.

Last year was my very first time celebrated my valentine's day, the places that we went exactly same like yesterday, wah so suffering, everything flash back. STOP STOP STOP, past already i know i only can move forward.

其实，经历了这段感情之后，我已经不知道该怎样谈恋爱了，好像，没什么值得我在付出在感情身上了。

最好的愛情
不是大起大落、大喜大悲

而是一杯溫水
不隨外界變幻而更改
不因歲月遷徙而轉移

給你的是永恆的溫暖

新滴一年

After 1 torturous week lying in the bed, no voice, fever, gastric, blablabla. Finally, on the first day of Chinese New Year, thanks God, is a new beginning , I recover from sick!

啊~好想呐喊：回家真好！！这些日子在外面吃了不少苦头，病了还一个人折腾着，好辛苦。一回到家得到妈妈细心的照料，幸福的滋味笔墨难以形容。我爱死你了妈，因为这世上没有别人比你更爱我 了。永远永远都那么爱你！

年初一下午，我的几只死党朋友都纷纷来我家拜年。大家又聚集在一起了，有说有笑。啊，久违的朋友我也爱你们，你们是陪我一起长大的死党，希望我们的友谊长长久久！亲戚朋友也来拜年，可是今年爸爸这里没有像往年一样搞gathering dinner了，好可惜。大哥也没有回来，因为我的侄儿病了。

年初二，这个一点都没有改变，我们一定去外婆家，然后到舅舅家吃一顿再回家。也和以往一样，我都是在那里发呆吃年饼，没事情做还打瞌睡哈哈~因为我和舅舅他们都没什么话题聊。

年初三出席朋友的晚宴，她结婚啦，errr，听说是奉子成婚的，但whatever啦，什么年代了，好像很正常啦。haha恭喜你哦朋友，祝福你们！也和以前diploma的同学聚一聚。大家都长大咯，个个都变得很有女人味哈哈~ 喝完喜酒去c kopitiam和朋友喝茶，无意间竟然遇到老同学刘威涵和柯佑。好巧，看到他们的变化更大！哈哈。

年初四我和我死党很早就出发去槟城（我没有睡迟的话会更早吧，呵呵不好意思啊~）我们去极乐寺啦还有其他旅游胜地，但由于塞车我们没法去太多地方但大家还是很开心。

年初五我终于可以好好的贴在我家的床和沙发享受在家了。哈哈从来都没发觉我家是这样的舒服，它虽然不是什么大洋房，没什么特别，偶尔还很热，很吵很乱，但他却那么的吸引我，因为那是我的家。世上最安全的避风港。=）

啊，过不久我又要离开这个家了，回到槟城读书，我好想逃，不想回去面对那一箩箩没完没了的问题，功课，人，事，和物。好累~

I really love this pic.

倒

我竟然病倒了。失恋到现在还是第一次病倒了。我的身体终于给我脸色看了。这半年以来，我越来越不爱他了，我经常熬夜看半夜场，和朋友吃喝玩乐，根本就不理会我对“它”的伤害有多深。已经三天了，我躺在床上好像死尸一样，好辛苦。

然而，我很庆幸我在这时候有家人带我去看医生。更感恩的是，我的死党纪康伟送来热腾腾的果条汤还有yoghurt 谢谢你！这种感觉是温暖的，感激不尽。更感动的是，还事前帮我通知我学生的妈妈说我不能去教课了，因为你知道，我这个倔强的性格是会死撑去教书的。再肉麻也很想跟你说声：朋友！有你真好！

昨晚看了医生，尼玛的，把我辛辛苦苦赚来的补习费都给挖光了。哎，生活艰难啊~（广东）

今天还看了他的部落格，我很惊讶。他怎么可以这么快就变了？什么变成坏男人？什么被甩了？朋友你看着：爱情不是施舍，而我从来都没和你开始过，何来的甩？如果我现在接受你，那么只会对你来说不公平。我宁愿坦白告诉你，当个坏人也好过当一个滥好人。你明白吗？

The February

The first day of February, I spent my night with this guy, Simon, my ex colleague at WMA. We know each other at KL's WMA. Both of us were interns during that time.

The first impression this guy gave me was, he looks nerdy. He must be someone who likes to play Dota (indubitably) XD, still single, not presentable and hmm, might score high CGPA as well. Ahahaa, after some time knowing this guy, he is isn't what I think of.  He is an out going person, use vulgar words to express whatever good or bad thing, kaki clubbing, playboy?maybe I guess, because he always invite me to those expensive restaurants, had many GF previously, and always hunting for leng luis, hmm just to describe in simply, he isn't a good guy, (HE IS BAD GUY la) *Litotes* hehe.

I feel so regretful each time after I hang out with this guy. Because, I had to spend a lot. As I told him, I am just a poor student, I do not have extra money for entertainment and spend my $ to luxuries food. But guess what, this guy really geng; no matter how many times I reject his invitation cruelty, he never give up, he keep asking keep disturbing you. *salute* I feel like I am stupid sometimes, because at last, I will feel like I sympathise him for keeping reject his invitation. (Well, this is indubitably my weakness and I hate it very much) >.<

But still, I learnt a lot of things from him la, he is a clever guy with high level of proficiency in English, he scored band 5 in MUET *shame on me*, he is also a tuition teacher previously. Instead of saying him a bad guy, hmm maybe I have to change my perspective towards him that he is an open-minded guy, because of his family background. He also taught me a lots on relationship matters.

Oh, forgot to update what I had for my dinner, on 1st of February. We went to Chili's G Hotel. Hmm, ordered yummylicious Pina Chilada smoothies, the taste was great. It was combination of vinilla, pineapple... err forgot other ingredients ady. Then the not so delicious Ranch Sandwich (which i feel not worth it for RM20.95.) Coke light and Quesa Chicken Tacos for him. Hmm the tacos taste nice. After dinner, we went for movie : Hansel and Gretal Witch Hunter. This movie was adapted from a fairy tale story. Hmm not bad this movie. A great movie to be seen.

I gotta go. Have to go to Sunway Tunas submit my report and then home tuition tonight.
Ahh, what a busy day AGAIN. When is my drama day?
and CNY is just around the corner, ahh I miss my home badly, as well as my parents. Can't wait going back home.T.T

Shoes

Believe me, Girls will never end up with shoes. Below are the shoes that I have bought recently.

This is my snake year CNY shoes. hehe, I like this the most because, it is the  cheapest and the nicest among these 3 pair of shoes. It only costs RM25.

I bought this Larrie Ballerina flats is because I had to wear this comfortable shoes to work as i need to stand for 9 hours. Although I don't like the design, but hell yeah this shoe really comfortable to wear. It costs RM69.90 after 50% of discount. 

You might think that this slipper you can simply found at anywhere and can get it around RM10-RM20. But, you are WRONG darling, this slipper costs RM230!!! Stunned~

不想懂了

Ahhh! I m pissed of with those quotes that posted at facebook. Yeah, i m terribly in bad mood now.

什么用心去看人心？人是会变的。为什么要把事情想到那么复杂？很多时候，我们人活在这世上，只要做好自己的本份就够了不是吗？只要我们做的事，对得起自己也对得起别人那不就好了吗？当然。我也不完全排斥这个道理啦，我们是该常常有颗警惕的心。很多时候也不要听到一些是非就判断那个人。

每一次我真的不懂该怎样才好，你要怎样看我我已经管不着，我只是凭我的自觉和良心做事。累了，不想懂了。

The S eleven : Money

Believe it or not, although people always claim that money isn't an important thing in our life, but in fact, it plays a major role in our life. In my family, MONEY, it all really matters.

I was born in a poor family, so since I was young I witnessed how my family struggle for our live. I still remembered one time during the Chines New Year, my mum did not have money to distribute red packet (so-called ang pow) to our relatives, so what she did was after we have received the red packet, she took out our money and exchange in other red packet so that she can distribute ang pow to my relatives. I was so upset at that time. T.T

Since then, I started to feel that, money is really important in our life. So I started to figure out how to accumulate money. Aha! This 10 years old little girl has an idea- Savings! I save the pocket money that my mum gave me everyday, I brought some breads or biscuits to school. After she has finished her UPSR exams, I worked as a helper in my primary school. I helped those Librarians and I managed to earn RM4 per day. Sometimes if i was lucky i will get free drinks! XD. RM4 meant a lot to this 12 years old girl. She feel satisfied she can earn money by her own.

When I was in my secondary school, I joined member of some catalogue, 密斯&银河. So I brought the catalogue to school and become an agent, helping my friends to order the product that they want. Aha! This 13 years old little girl can earn the commissions! The more products ordered, the more commission she will get. I never waste my holiday slacking around at home, after i finished my PMR examinations, I went to work as a sales girl in a wholesale shop, i still remembered the shop name called : GSL. It took me 10 minutes from my home to that shop. My salary was RM450 per month. First time when I got my salary, I bought my brother 2 sets of squash uniform. I get myself a Body Glove purse as reward. =)

Besides, I always works as part timer at several hypermarket all the time. After I finished my SPM examinations, I came to Penang to find a higher salary job. My brother brought me to interview for several jobs. Finally i decided to work as a promoter at Eu Yan Sang, as a sales promoter. I gained a lots of survival's skill experience here. I learned how to live independently without anyone helps. I explored this city by my own. I went to work by bus, I asked direction from strangers. Everything was my first time. I can earned RM1200+ per month. Woah I am so happy! I used that money to get my driving license.

I had to return back to my hometown for further studies (diploma in accountancy). During the 3 years time, I as usual I always works as part time promoter in hypermarket nearby my house. The salary that i earned i get myself a Sony Ericsson  K770i  handphone (wow, bergaya weh! Hahahha~)

Then when i reached 19 years old, my brother has signed up me as an Amway member. I hate direct selling at first, but after i get to know this business better, I felt this is really a good business! I should develop this business since I am still young. So, I started to begin this business. Through centre meeting and sister Grace guidance, I learn how to socialising with people, how to do servicing, how to build business network and so on. I even learn how to cook, how to use facial product, nutrition knowledge and guess what? Wow fantastic baby! This business not only teaches me how to earn money, but at the same time makes me realised how important is having DREAMS! I changed a lot, from a introvert to extrovert person. =)

After i graduated from Diploma, again i came to "cari makan" at Penang! I worked at Thye Sun Hup Kee Sdn Bhd, at Bayan Lepas. This job was actually introduced by my ex's friend. So we both worked together in that company. We both resigned after we were offered to further our studies at USM.

Last year, i did my internship at Wealth Mastery Academy nearby Queensbay area. I was in charged  under sales department as a telemarketer. Thanks God, i gained quite a lot of experience as i was given an opportunity to outstation at KL. Besides, I earned around thousand plus commission, hehe, what else? I get myself a new smartphone. Samsung S Advance. Yipeee! =P

Ahaha, finally talking about present. Currently i am  in my 2nd year 1st sem semester break, hmm without wasting anytime, I worked as part time promoter during weekend and as  home tutor during weekdays. people busy preparing for coming Chinese New Year; some enjoying their holiday, whereas I am busy earn money as I am getting poorer  because i had spent too much money due to my ankle's injury.

Money money money $$$, my life has never end with "cari makan". But, I feel glad that i was born in not-so-rich's family background. At least, it makes me appreciate the value of money.

Ok talking about conclusion, the only thing that i practises till TODAY is : "I have to work hard to get what I want. There is no free lunch in this world. " 

Wow I wrote so long wei! salute to myself. *thumb up* hahaha~

Ok Fight for what i desire to get next: A Car, Braces, A Guitar  =)

林米音！加油！UCDI !!!!

The Twelve Cups

Tada! I spent my lovely night with my shi jie (Ah Ru) at The Twelve Cups, which i never been there before. Our purpose of meet up is to buy Sanctband Resistive Band, is a kind of tool for us to exercising, to shape up our arms, thigh etc, (janji can slim la >.< ) haha XD. 

But unfortunately, we can't manage to find that Sanctband Resistive Band, too bad. So in we end up with yum cha at that coffee shop lor. Yor, diet plan failed T.T

You know what? The crepes look so tempting, luring me to order all the flavours.*drool* But of course, due to budget and diet problem, we shared the crepe la....hehe. Okay, "1 Hokkaido Chocolate Mille Crepe and 1 Apple Studel" RM 14.40 in total.
 First bite of the crepe, owh i felt i was in the heaven! yummylicious, nom nom nom, finish within a few minutes!! 

Next, I m gonna try apple studel! I just knew that a strudel is a type of layered pastry with a most often sweet-filling. It tasted so nice! But, I still prefer crepe. =)

I really likes desserts and I'd love to try each one of them, especially those from western, and deep down in my heart, i really hope i can open a coffee shop in the future, because, you can absolutely feel the satisfaction when people are enjoying the food that you served. =)

.                                                                                          Hokkaido Chocolate Mille Crepe

                                                                                                                                  Apple Studel

A Mask

There is a mask in my face. I wears it everyday, except, in the night time when i sleep.
Sometimes, I feel like wanna take off the mask, but I can't.
In this realistic world, I'm sure, most of us wear the mask all the time.
We have to, although is fake, disgusting, hatred, still, we have to wear it to protect ourself.
Human are born with no right to choose which family background you want or who you want to be.
So with mask, we can hide ourself from letting people know who are we.

末期考试

都市里一盏盏的灯，让你看不到夜晚的黑暗。然而，心中那莫名的寂寞又有谁了解呢？今晚我感到特别孤独和寂寞。啊，好折腾的末期考试。加油吧！别辜负了父母对你的期望。